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Dec. 10th, 2008 | 12:13 pm

Life is one continuous wave with some really high points and really low points and all the points in between. Sometimes the wave kind of flattens out and all is good. Other times it's up and down, up and down...

I'm feeling very anxious about 4 to 6 months from now. I'm feeling a lot of pressure. There are too many variables that I can't safely predict. Grad school delayed the omg-this-is-my-career-for-the-rest-of-my-life and I'm-really-truly-an-adult feelings. I just want to do what's right and what's best and not feel like I missed out on any amazing opportunities because I chose this another path. Not knowing makes me want to vomit and cry and give into the comfort of staying in bed the rest of my life. I won't but I feel that way.

Cindy has tempted me with the exotic adventure of South Korea but I honestly have a difficult time justifying and reconciling an entire year spent teaching English after two years of putting so much time, effort, and money into a specialized masters degree. And that makes me feel a little sad.

I'm going to apply for the National Park Service HABS heritage documentation summer job program. I've been thinking about it since last night when I was first notified about it and the more I think about it, the more I feel like it's something I need to do. One of those somethings that I'll regret not applying for. So I'll apply at the very least; it doesn't mean I'll be chosen.

I wish I was better at living more in the present instead of the future. I'm good for a few weeks at a time and then the future rears its ugly futurey head and I start feeling crazy again.

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life updates

Dec. 7th, 2008 | 10:25 am

It's been an interesting week.

1. The Wednesday before Thanksgiving, I got a parking ticket for an expired meter. In a parking lot that I have a downtown resident parking permit for. Um, what?! After much calling around, being given the runaround, brushed off, and finally told to write a letter to contest it, I requested a copy of my permit application from the City Treasurer. Who immediately called the issuing police officer to see about getting it voided so I wouldn't have to go to court. Again, can I get another what?! This was two days after I initially called their office and they brushed me off telling me to call the police department. In the end, the police officer is voiding the ticket and I don't have to pay it. Honestly, it was a matter of principle and $10. The permit is expensive and I'm not going to pay a dime more for it.

2. Tuesday morning, I discovered my windshield had cracked overnight. It's about a foot long running from the bottom passenger side upwards and curving around a small crack that's been there since we bought the car. It makes my car look even more awesome! </sarcasm> I'm getting it fixed Tuesday; I could keep driving around with it and be fine, but it annoys me.

3. Friday night was the Starlight Spree in downtown Ypsilanti and Depot Town. Matt and I walked down to Depot Town for the tree lighting at 7PM and got there at exactly 6:59PM. Went to the vintage/antique store there and then walked back to downtown. It was freezing cold that night. Went to the Rocket and got a bagful of taffy, laffy taffys, and root beer barrels. Stopped at the What Is That? art gallery on the way back to my apartment and looked at some student art. And we made a final stop at Bowerbird Mongo, another vintage/antique shop a few stores down from my apartment. Which brings me to...

4. I bought a coffee table at Bowerbird Mongo. 1950s. $20, purchased for $18 and some change because of a coupon. I wrung my hands for a good 10-15 minutes trying to decide whether or not to buy it. It was just too good of a deal to pass up. It's in pretty good condition, the drawer has dovetail joints, and there doesn't appear to be a wood veneer on it.


5. Saturday was insane. Read on...

6. Matt and I went to my professor's home in Ann Arbor so that I could get the measurements of his carriage house for a site plan for his class's final project. He invited us in after for hot chocolate and showed us around the house. It's a Greek Revival that has been restored meticulously. Incredibly gorgeous. The measuring didn't take as long as I thought it would and we ended up having a little over an hour left before my hair appointment, so we went to lunch at Kai Garden and stopped by the Cupcake Station for some treats for the PE Holiday Party that night.

7. I got my hair re-highlighted and cut. I didn't get it cut short but got the layers re-cut and my bangs trimmed. We did a chocolate brown for the highlights and it's a little dark at the moment, the darkest my hair's ever been. It'll lighten up some with a few washes. I like it but I definitely wasn't expecting it.


8. I then went to the Shadow Art Fair in Ypsilanti with Steph, Matt's sister. It was fun and busy and I bought an awesome SAF t-shirt with this man on it:


10. Then I had to go to the Preservation Eastern Holiday Party at the Lakehouse on campus. It was okay... a lot of people didn't show up because of the weather. The vernacular gingerbread houses for the competition were really neat. And there was a lot of food, hehe.

11. My last day at MDOT is tomorrow. Crazy-ness.

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The Brilliant Dance

Nov. 30th, 2008 | 06:09 pm

*stolen from Cindy-face*

I. Put your iTunes/Ruckus/Napster/Wind
ows Media Player/etc on shuffle.
II. For each question, press the next button to get your answer
III. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS!

1. IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?
Lights - The Editors
2. WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
Human - The Killers
3. WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
I Summon You (Cool) - Spoon
4. HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Just A Ride - Jem
5. WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
Shine On - The Kooks
6. WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
Hey Girl - Dashboard Confessional
7. WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
The Phrase That Pays - The Academy Is
8. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?
Lovesong of the Buzzard - Iron and Wine
9. WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Get Busy - Sean Paul
10. WHAT IS 2+2?
Too Much - Spice Girls
11. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
Get Some - Chevelle
12. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Gatekeeper - Feist
13. WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Despair in the Departure Lounge - Arctic Monkeys
14. WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Calendar Girl - Stars
15. WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Sexyback - Justin Timberlake
16. WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
Next to Nothing - Breaking Benjamin
17. WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
For You to Notice - Dashboard Confessional
18. WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Because of You - Kelly Clarkson
19. WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
The Fallen - Franz Ferdinand
20. WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
In the Bleak Midwinter - Ed Harcourt
21. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Long to Go - Funeral For a Friend
22. WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
Honey and the Moon - Joseph Arthur
23. HOW WILL YOU DIE?
No Signs of Life - OK Go
24. DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
What I'm Trying to Say - Stars
25. IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?
Ivy Parker - Boy Kill Boy
26. WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW?
The Sound of Settling - Death Cab for Cutie
27. WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
The Brilliant Dance - Dashboard Confessional

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bear with me and this rambly paragraph-ish.

Nov. 21st, 2008 | 03:18 pm
music: the presets - "girl and the sea"

My dad found a box full of pictures and other things in our basement recently and I went through some of it yesterday. Part of the box was stuff from Paul's funeral that I didn't get the chance to go through because my dad put the box away at that point. But the other part was mostly pictures I've never seen before. Pictures from my 7th and 8th birthday, random pictures from growing up at our house on Laurel, and then a lot of pictures from the last year we lived at Laurel before we moved to Salem. That last year's worth of pictures I've never seen before and memory-wise, a lot of that year is a blur. Like there were pictures from when I first got my hair cut super short (to mid-ear) and while I knew it was before 4th grade started, I never connected before that it was only about 5 or 6 weeks after Paul died... an emotional cutting I suppose. I guess that's why all of those pictures were stored away in a box under a sheet and never put in albums. From the way my parents were talking as we looked through the pictures, I don't think they realize how much I actually remember from that time and how much of that actually affected me. I hate being the whiney my-brother-died-when-I-was-nine person but that entire year he was sick and the entire year after he died completely changed who I was. It's the one time I can definitively point to in my childhood that was a pivotal, life-changing moment that has directly and indirectly affected who I am.

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aimee's favorite things

Nov. 21st, 2008 | 02:35 pm

I was reading about Oprah's Favorite Things list for this year and she's not going to shower her audience with expensive, amazing, drool-worthy things this year in "honor" of the poor economy and hard times. Instead it's going to be about making things and she's apparently going to give the audience something that is completely free. I admit that I'm really curious to see what that's going to be.

To the point, is anyone else taking it easy this holiday season? Cutting back on the consumption? I'm going to attempt to make quite a few presents this year with materials I've bought throughout the year... we'll see how successful I am.

But in honor of Oprah, here are a list of my favorite things at the moment and some ideas I have.
1. Music. I am loving Goldfrapp, MGMT, and of course, Bloc Party right now. I highly recommend you check any or all of them out. Also, Alex Parks does a great cover of "Mad World." And the Goldfrapp station, as well as the Ting Tings station, on Pandora is pretty much the only thing I listen to besides Bloc Party albums.

2. Along those lines, the mix tape = cheap Christmas gift. And, you're sharing/spreading the joy of music you love with people you love.

3. Sprouted wheat bread. So tasty, so good for you. A little more expensive than regular bread ($2.99 at Trader Joe's), it's has more fiber and protein and less calories and processing. It's a little sweet and 1 or 2 pieces go a long way in appeasing hunger for a few hours or more.

4. Beezy's Cafe in downtown Ypsilanti on N. Washington. Finally made my way there today. The atmosphere is cozy and a little hipster. I love the tin ceilings... I couldn't stop looking up at them. The food is good, portions are perfect, and the staff, including the owner Bee, is friendly and laid-back. The prices were of the typical coffeehouse variety (sandwiches $4.00-$7.00 and most were an average of that) but I think the freshness of the food is worth it. And I really liked the young, hipster, vegan/vegetarian vibe.

5. Button rings. I made one at DUCF. It makes me ridiculously happy. It's the simplest thing yet just thinking about it brings an involuntary smile to my face. I'm not entirely sure why two buttons, thread, and a ring finding make me happy... there might be something wrong.

6. Local shopping and crafting. I'm going to try to do most of my holiday shopping locally this year. I think it can be done and what I don't buy, I'll make. The Rocket has a lot of great, fun stuff and candy! I haven't really found anything at the local antique shops but who knows, I may find something yet.

I wish I had 4 more favorite things of the moment to make this list a 10 but I can't think of anything. Sadness.

MDOT internship ends at the end of the first week of December. A month ago it seemed so far away and now it seems like it's tomorrow. A part of me is ready to move on, the other part is going to miss the constant research and "detective work" and Sigrid.

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Nov. 12th, 2008 | 11:03 am

At last night's HDC meeting, it was revealed that the owner of a property that needs to be demo-ed has Alzheimers, which is why it's taken him so long to submit a demolition application package and why he's had so many issues doing it. The sad part to me was that his daughter has basically washed her hands of him because she can't deal with his problems anymore.

I don't know the family's history or anything about their father/daughter relationship, but damn that's cold. I can't imagine the frustration and grief of having a parent with Alzheimers but seriously? No matter what, I could never do that to either of my parents.

It just made me sad. That's all.

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ps. vote for smith

Nov. 6th, 2008 | 07:20 pm

And does this video remind you of anyone? Mercury by Bloc Party



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bloody brilliant.

Nov. 6th, 2008 | 06:54 pm
music: Bloc Party :P

I've avowed my love for Bloc Party in the past and I'm proclaiming it again. Even more vehemently. Their latest album "Intimacy" is spectacular. Almost as good as their first album "Silent Alarm" and that's the one album that I will never get sick of listening to. I could listen to "Silent Alarm" for the rest of my life and be content. There's something very special about Kele Okereke and the music he creates.

The standouts on this album for me right now are "Mercury," "Biko," and "Signs." Kele's lyrics and voice speak to me. It's weird but they help give me hope, inspire me, and make me feel better. I feel like Kele completely understands our generation and our world right now... in song form.

I love his voice too. The earnest yearning, the urgency, the softness, the shyness. Bloc Party touches me.

Biko


Flux


Signs (Acoustic)




And this video from La Blogotheque is pure awesomeness.
This Modern Love

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Pros and Cons

Oct. 30th, 2008 | 10:32 am

This morning I got gas for $2.13; if I would have had enough cash, it would have been $2.09. Just awesome. Seriously.

I've kind of been asked to stay on here in Lansing through the spring. To consider it at least. Honestly, I'm not sure and I'm attempting to weigh how important the extra money is versus my life next semester.

Next semester I'll have 4 classes; at least 2 of those are going to be intense, requiring a lot of research, time, and possibly fieldwork. The other 2 have the potential to be on the same level. All of the classes, except one at 5:30, will start at 7:20 in the evening, with one going to 10PM and I'll be going 4 days/week compared to the 2 days I go now.

Oh, and I'll also be really buckling down and completing my final project. So that coupled with the other research and normal schoolwork I'll probably have to do means I'll need at least one free weekday for researching at public agencies that are typically only available 9-5 on weekdays. I'll also have more time to exercise if I'm only working 3 days a week.

I will still have my internship with the Ypsilanti HDC. That internship will start paying me hourly beginning in January in addition to the stipend from the school. It's not even 2 blocks from where I live, so I'll be saving tremendously on traveling expenses, probably half or more of what I spend now because I can walk to work or drive not even a mile in gross weather.

And then there's the looming issue of the creeper. Even though there may be some resolution on that soon, I'm not sure it's going to be enough to make me feel more at ease and comfortable and it may even make those feelings worse when he is talked to.

Laying that all out, I think I know what the answer is. I need my time to focus on school and myself. Even though having extra money would be a nice cushion, it wouldn't be worth the stress and crazy scheduling. I'll have my year of experience in Lansing and almost a year of experience in Ypsilanti... that's enough. I have to know when to say no.

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I may be a little obsessed with bunnies at the moment...

Oct. 8th, 2008 | 12:11 pm
mood: thoughtfulthoughtful

So um, this Sunday the Great Lakes Sanctuary (bunny rescuers!) is having an open house fundraiser from 12-5. It's $6 per person. And there are BUNNIES! I kinda really want to go just to get my bunny fix since I can't have one. Anyone want to come with me and squee over bunnies and raise some money for the cute bunny-kins?

If you need some convincing, look at the bunnies on cuteoverload.com. Seriously cute. I think I just had a squee overload.

In other non-bunny related news, I'm writing a National Register nomination for my final HP project. It seemed like the most logical thing to do because I've already spent a good amount of time on the site and have most of the research completed.

And in non-HP related news, Chicago was amazing. It was a whirlwind two days but was entirely worth it to spend our 2 year together there. My favorite parts of the trip were Navy Pier, seeing all the great architecture I've been learning about, the fireworks at Navy Pier, and the tour of the Frank Lloyd Wright Home and Studio. We had the best pancakes Sunday morning and got to spend some time with Katie D and her boyfriend.

So... bunny times? Anyone?

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